Do u think I’m crazy and stupid if I just stay together with him?
“Well, I can’t say.. u can say.. But I think u deserve to be happy. Why u’r having relationship with mostly u’r hurted there..”
But I still wanna keep fighting for it, even his family keep ask me to be patient, and I don’t wanna dissapoint them.
“If u think u can fight for it, then just do it, if u think he would change, just follow what u feel. But u need to realize what between.. u need to see what u get, when ur having relationship in term of getting serious, then not only your heart should talk, u need to see the fact, let the fact talks also, and catch it.”
Few times I felt enough, but when I met his close people, that thing would be different, they built up back my confidence to stay with him, eventhough how hurt my feeling is… I feel cheated, dissapointed, and loose my trust on him.
“ummm.. do you still love him?”
I don’t know, maybe I just feel I don’t wanna be alone, I don’t know whether I’m ready to be alone without him. And again his family is too kind to me.
“Thing that I wanna say is, until know, he is still your companion, not even your fiance, and your relationship shouldn’t be any related with his family yet. It’s good to know that u know them and vice versa, but still both of u who own the relationship, not u with them. There shouldn’t be any interfere from any body. Both of u who decide where to go.”
Yes, I know that. But I think I might wanna try it again.
“What ever it is, I support u always, just be in mind, u can choose your own happines.”
Few months later
I think I can’t bear him.
“U know what to do.”
It hurts me alot, so much, I feel stupid! But U know what, I told him I could’t accept it anymore, but he put all his madness after me. Then he said, it’s better to be over. And I said “ok!”.
“U know what best for u, and u deserve to get.”
I know God knows the good for me.
“*I’m relieve….U should happy dear friend”